Tuesday, March 22, 2005

Feeling miserable
Feeling miserable, down ,even more terrible than terrible , unbelievable

First of all , before i start writing what had happened today, i would like to thank Hui Min, Stella, Li Ping, Shye Fern and i think Yi Ru or Dianna and others...sorry, pardon me for not remembering who had consoled me today...i really appreciate all of u ...if not for u all, i would not know how important friends were...Me ...was feeling so dejected becuz i couldn't do well in anything..including the Napfa test today...Even a shuttle run could made me went limp in my limbs....my legs juz couldn't move as per normal....the moment where mr ong said 'go'...i was feeling weak...i couldn't even at least get a 2 point...this time was worse than last year....then everyone was like chatting so happily regarding their points and i felt so "extra"....but this was not the worse yet...i failed standing broad jump again ....AGAIN....it's always like this...i knew that it was onli a Napfa, it wouldn't affect our o levels or wad so ever...but if i say that my mini exam was not tt good, not up to my expectations and this napfa thing came abt....how will all of u feel....it was like...i donno...tt's y i cried in napfa...couldn't hold back the tears...and mr ang was already 'guessing' how i felt even b4 the napfa....ya, that's becuz of my expression...i was not prepared for napfa...although i like this thing to come about as early as possible, even b4 my b'dae, it came juz so suddenly after the mini exam...i was feeling too tired for things like this...but i can be blamed for not having the ability to work on sports...btw, GOD give us a talent , if this was not good, i believed that we can excel in other things...however, i still couldn't find out what i m good in...n tomoro was the 2.4km...can i pass?

Jasmine aka Lihin
7:10 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005

Sobs...
Sobs...feeling horrible terrible vegetable and undescribable

Sobs sobs...got so worried becuz we get back all papers today...nv expected that my results took a plunge....i dropped in my Chinese and this was what i had nv expected... Many of my friends had scored high for mother tongue. Though i passed my physics , the results were juz an average...asked for ms neo for another mark but she would not want to give...This made me really irritated cuz i need another mark to get higher grade ..for chinese... i felt that i had the potential to score for it...This feeling S*X...Fortuanately, the compo and letter writing will be counted..it can pull my marks further up.And that chemistry, so what if there was an A...when i realized that there were so much mistakes that it can be avoided...AND , that English paper, pass with a C grade...and my brother win me half a mark...lame...felt that i can do so much better ...my results for this mini exam can said to be one of my lousiest result ever...it was not like that last year...i wanted to get back my last's years results...i hope that this promise will soon be fufiled ...Things juz didn turn out rightly...Sometimes i really hope to shout and vent my frustration at a beach or whatever, i could not stand this...

Jasmine aka Lihin
9:20 PM

All about me

Jasmine Siah Li Hin
20
Junyuan sec, Meridian JC, NTU

Love and Hate

Wants and likes
To travel around the world
More sleep
To play piano all my life
Watching dramas, hong kong, taiwan,korean series..
All my beloved friends in mjc
All my beloved friends in junyuan 4E3,06
All my beloved friends in choir, be it mj or jyss
All my beloved friends in CCS Mjc
All my beloved friends in NTU To sing
To bowl
To hang around with my friends
To play mahjong--someone has to teach me tai!
To continue playing the piano
Hates
People who shirks responsibilities
Being too stressed
Being lonely
Being too sensitive
Being bullied