hope S P R I N G S eternal

Today i suffer from three big blows...maybe the third one is juz a minor one...cuz i don really care abt wad i will get for that particular event.

First blow: Today during compass lesson, my CT or my physics tutor came into the class and flashed the piece of paper with our block test results..he actually highlighted those ppl who scored "S" and "U" for their block test...wad the..how demoralising was that..then he said he donno how to help these ppl...then obviously my name got highlighted la...then he commented that "S" is not a pass actually...wad the...actually i regained my confidence juz after my gp private tutor told me that i improved my essay quite alot already..the only thing is to work on paper 2 which i screwed up damn heavily for this block test otherwise i will get an "E" and above..
Then after my phy tutor flashed the paper...my confidence seemed to drain off okay...And at first i tot that physics is the onli subject that 208 scored the worse...Who knows that...
2nd blow: Maths paper...208 also scored the worse!!!!!Mr Vincent Ng told us that today and i was super super shocked!! In other words..i think i will be at the bottom rank in meridian okay! cuz my results already S and U...then plus 208 is at the bottom for maths and physics...i think it is quite obvious where i stand...No wonder Mr vincent nowadays seemed pretty wierd...becoming more thoughtful...and i knew he was stressed up over our results..juz that he chose to remain as funny as ever to cover his stressfulness...it is very obvious..
3rd blow: Today during Napfa...i can get A for pull up and A for sit up....then when it comes to sit-and reach, i got E...and SBJ as usual..O point...shuttle run also 0..lol...i don even feel like running...

Aim: To pull up my grades no matter wad sacrifices i will make(listen good..no matter wad sacrifices i will make....) and prepare for the midyrs...
Unless i really pulled up my grades..then i will go on blogging...If my results are like that throughout(choy!) No blogging for me ....3 big blows and i cant even do well for the econs test today...cant concentrate...the feeling is more than being depressed...

Jasmine aka Lihin
6:13 PM

Haiz...nowadays i very lazy to blog...no mood no strength no energy...the only thing that i can do at home now is either study, spree or sleep...obviously hv to go to school la..my dad and mum don allow me to stay overnight in school for movie marathon cuz they scared i m caught with dengue again=(=(=(...dots....choy la..of cuz i wont...but if i really get caught the second time(touchwood!), i think i will die..LOL...ok sorry...not funny ar...but sianz..i cant thon with timothy siying amina they all...haiz...at first i still tot i can thon...
2nd thing is also becuz of my block test results( yes they sucks..)and they kept on yagging that later i go stay there overnight, then come home fall sick again how...then cannot study la...blablabla..
Had to say sorry to constance...cuz at first i agreed to her that i will go..but now i feel that my parents got a point on what they are saying and i chose to obey...cuz they are concerned abt me and my health---wad's more a levels is reaching....Kiasu abit will help aid success too..But i will help out for xiaopin to redeem myself ----haiz....as much as i can do..
Well well...
I got one of my spree item!Look!
Checkered dress...

Jasmine aka Lihin
9:10 PM