Saturday, March 08, 2008

Even though i wasn hoping for anything becuz i knew that this time round, my chinese result will sure took a plunge, i still hv to admit that i do feel a tinge of unsatisfaction from my heart. But at least, my oral is still a distinction and it shows that it did pull up my overall result by a little?

Immediately i went home from sch ytd without thinking of anything and my dad was kind enough to fetch me ....I told him abt it and he said: Don worry, i believe that you can do well for other subjects..As long as u passed ur mother tongue, u can get into a Uni... I couldn believe that my heart was not sensitive to his words....It is a total crap cuz my eyes were red after i heard those words...
I told me dad that i m always not getting what i deserved. He was looking at me puzzledly...Cuz i didn tell him how unjustified it was for me not getting the right CIP hours for ya, some of u will know...After this had happened, i think i juz wanted to say that CCS really gives me a sense of insecurity...Reviewing of how i backed out from choir, i think i feel a little remorseful since they need ppl at that point of time...I was not gonna say that i regret choosing this path cuz i still make alot of good friends in CCS...The prob juz lies in feeling really insecured now and then...Choir gives me stress and due to my lack of confidence, i backed out(after 4 months inside) ...but it doesn give me an insecure feel...Sorry if this para does impact some of u out there...but i m juz doing some reflections and i hope it doesn make anyone feel uneasy.
I m feeling very frustrated this weeks about it and obviously now, when my chinese results were out..I think i get even more worried for my other subjects...
The funny thing was , he brought me to look for ah ma...AND NOT HOME...so i had to bear for the whole one hr , pretending that i looked nth wrong talking infront of her at all...I knew that the maid knew that i cried as she was looking pathetically at me..

But what to do..i don believe in retaking anyway...this is my fate...i had to face it...
Not forgetting last but not least...Zul, Siying and Phoebe for the encouragement given to me even though...not directly...lol..haha..oh ya and jiawen..

Dedicated to people who cares for me!
歌手：欧得洋 专辑：101封情书

打印预览 用一颗心来
感觉你的爱
只希望你能明白

我的心中
也只有你
我也只想要保护你

从第一天起
我就爱上你
因为你真的很贴心

你的笑容
在我心里
我现在唱这一首歌给你

我要跟你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走

如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右

一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦

永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空

当你在
我心中
微笑一直在我的脸孔

默默在
你心中
我也会有一点感动

我知道我最爱你
永不放弃
因为有你在我的心里

你和我不分离

我要跟你手牵手
永远不回头
一起勇敢向前走

如果有什么波折
有我的胸口
紧紧贴在你左右

一直握着你的手
永远不回头
因为你是我的梦

永不放弃
因为爱你
若你是星星
我是你的天空

Jasmine aka Lihin
8:19 AM

All about me

Jasmine Siah Li Hin
20
Junyuan sec, Meridian JC, NTU

Love and Hate

Wants and likes
To travel around the world
More sleep
To play piano all my life
Watching dramas, hong kong, taiwan,korean series..
All my beloved friends in mjc
All my beloved friends in junyuan 4E3,06
All my beloved friends in choir, be it mj or jyss
All my beloved friends in CCS Mjc
All my beloved friends in NTU To sing
To bowl
To hang around with my friends
To play mahjong--someone has to teach me tai!
To continue playing the piano
Hates
People who shirks responsibilities
Being too stressed
Being lonely
Being too sensitive
Being bullied