Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Okay...I need you all to know that i have a very sensitive heart and if apparently, if u leave a very good impression to me, i will accept it and i will think that you really, are someone whom i worth working with or can socialise with. However, if ur good impression is to change and turn into a bad one..I guess there is nth else that i can say except for----u don deserve my respect...It applies to many ppl , not only to juz whom i worked with and whatever...
Well, i cried silently today...and i knew that i shouldn have blog about this, since, it is afterall, a silent cry....not meant to be known..But, what is the purpose of having this blog?
For me to blog rite...and i juz wanna let this blog listens to my heart...
I realised that things for me, yes for me, all the time, maybe qianwen, jean and jiawen knows about it...dont really go smoothly in MJC...My SISTER knows what has been happening to me and she claimed that i have always been SWAY all my life...so whether or not i m in MJC or not, things will still be the same...
I know that many of u will tell me..AH YA, think positively can? Be open-minded..yayaya..BUT, u are not me...u will nv know how i feel...Even my Brother wans me to stop whatever i m doing as i have been doing too much...too much for cca...too much for project work...way too much...UNTIL the point where i fall ill...My parents, especially my dad, is really afraid that i cant take it already...
What do i stand to gain...i ASKed my brother....And he says that he can see that i gain nth and lose smth---happiness and life...
BUT I CHOSE TO think POSITIVELY after i cried...i told myself that there will always be people there for me...People in HCTT listens to my plight...my complaints...and ppl like jiawen,shujun,lam ...who still cares for me...At least, i gained smth --I gained the trust they have in me..they believe that i can do it..I gained dignity since i know that at least...i don lose conscience...

Jasmine aka Lihin
12:41 AM

All about me

Jasmine Siah Li Hin
20
Junyuan sec, Meridian JC, NTU

Love and Hate

Wants and likes
To travel around the world
More sleep
To play piano all my life
Watching dramas, hong kong, taiwan,korean series..
All my beloved friends in mjc
All my beloved friends in junyuan 4E3,06
All my beloved friends in choir, be it mj or jyss
All my beloved friends in CCS Mjc
All my beloved friends in NTU To sing
To bowl
To hang around with my friends
To play mahjong--someone has to teach me tai!
To continue playing the piano
Hates
People who shirks responsibilities
Being too stressed
Being lonely
Being too sensitive
Being bullied