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今天和昨天（考试前在做准备）所发生的状况！

Had a terrible terrible stomachache yesterday after i came back from school(after the chem paper 3) and i kept on using the washroom till don even have time to revise for maths paper 2 which was TODAY...i almost couldnt tolerate and requested my brother to go downstairs and buy some medicine for me ytd...and after taking it, it is okay FOR ONLI A WHILE..haiz...i really have no choice but to bear the pain and revise maths until 1am ...have to sacrifice some sleep no matter wad cuz i spent so much time in the washroom...And this morning, i had diarrhea again...wad the...the worse thing was that my "healing pills" went missing in the morning and i couldnt find them...And my dad had to drive to my grandma's house to save my plight...And then, he drove back to Meridian to pass me the healing pills(so called) and i had to ate it just 5 mins before i stepped into the exam hall...My mind was like.."die, hope that i can do the qns ...hope that it isnt so hard as i never practice anything ytd...." I was fortunate enough that i wasnt having stomachache during those few hours of exam period...
And luckily, i found those qns do-able (provided tat i don make any careless miastakes)...
I hope this is the last time that i m encountering such dreaded incident...maybe this time round i had to blame myself for not taking good care of myself...

何维健克罗地亚的天空
后院的蒲公英逐渐失去笑容
我始终不懂浇多少水才够
没有你的屋子变得好残旧
失去制造新记忆的渴求
有张明信片你一直不肯丢
常对着它发呆好久
一座心形岛屿在蔚蓝海中
美丽得让你爱不释手
于是我拼了命的搜索找寻那座岛屿的下落
唯一为你许下的承诺就是要牵着你的手
漫步在你梦想中的天国
白色的蒲公英带着梦
散落在我深爱你的天空
像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风
温热的气候不会有寒冬
我用力地握着你的手
翱翔在通往幸福的天空
这景象一直都是你梦寐以求
牵着手我们一起验收
好不容易真的有线索在亚得里亚海某个角落
带着你飞过半个地球奔向你梦想的出口
你的声音却越来越微弱
我只需要多一分钟给你最后一次感动
你的呼吸却变沉重
白色的蒲公英带着梦
散落在克罗地亚的天空
像纷飞的雪花飘在夏天的风
温热的气候心忍受着寒冬
我用力地握着你的手
翱翔在没有幸福的天空
这景象一直都是你梦寐以求
却只剩我代替你验收
多希望你能睁开双眸

Jasmine aka Lihin
12:24 PM

I m feeling frea**king dumb for attempting all 3 qns for physics A LEVEL exam...Can u imagine, i did such a stupid mistake and worse still, at this crucial point of time...I felt so embarrassed in walking up the stage just to ask the examiner whether i can cancel out one of my qns...how hell unlucky...On the first day where i sat for GP, i realized 5 mins before the exam that i brought the confirmation slip instead of the entry proof to the exam hall...And the invigilator was like damn angry and yes she should...and today...I M CARELESS again...blur like donno wad..do all 3 questions and never realized that i m like fre**king lack of time...dah....Anyway i had to thank yunfang even though i think she wont know tt i m a little grateful to her...Becuz of her boldness to defend for herself and speak for herself just to cancel out that particular qns, i got the chance to do it as well..i know there shouldn be any excuse because it was really our fault...But i m abit lucky because she was also there...it was like two people reinforcing to the examiner that "we just wanna....." and hence they got persuaded...But i m not so lucky..so i have to learn that i shouldn take things for granted...
But whatever it is, i just hope for the best and die die also must do my best for the rest of the papers...i was trying DAMN hard to concentrate for the maths paper just now which was straightafter the physics paper..
Luckily my parents nv really asked me abt how's the As...cuz i don wanna let them know abt it....even though my dad was quite apparent about my carelessness and all that....But i told my brother and as usual he said:" Haiyo! Next time please don like that liao la..u everytime exam cock up one leh!" dots....i do agree but i just donno y...
but that's not the point anyway.....ya ,thus, i have to blog this out to feel better...And even if people out there thinks that i m dumb, i don think i m gonna bother..because even if i m 'dumb' in this way, i m still clever in other things....
I always put myself down and don believe in what i do...but now, i realise that becuz of this lack of confidence, i m always being taken advantage of....I don care what 'these people' will pinpoint ...but i do know that if u pinpoint, please set yourself a good example first...otherwise....yup...its okay...anyway my main point here is just to hope that i will try my best and not let my teachers down...

Jasmine aka Lihin
7:44 PM